the fear...

sleepless nights I encountered,
failing to shut my eyes,
no peaceful rest,
what is happening?
why cant I sleep?
what is this fear that is planted deep inside of me?
I feel like i have lost control of myself............
why, why,why,
i dont know why.....
looking up the sky,
smoking on my ciggarette hoping it will help to calm me down....
but yet the fear is still there,
it will never go away,
it will always be everywhere...............


(well this is a post where it sorta explain stress in today's society in a more scary and interesting way?lol.... well like it or not its like that FTW! ) =)